don't shackle yourself in regrets.

不知所措

2012-01-26T00:45:00.001+08:00

來到了人生的另一個十字路口，猛然覺得有些不知所措。更惱人的，是周圍的人還是無法以他人的眼光看待事件。有時，最令人厭煩的是無法得到他人的諒解。
已快入伍了，但心中還有很多放不下。這篇文字看得出很雜亂，我腦子也一片糊塗。
該睡了，真該睡了。。。

我的心

2011-12-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

是那么的小。是，偶尔小气。
却也那么的大。压抑的不愉快都不露面。

我爱说话，我的心里本来就藏着许多秘密。快乐有时，说多也就为了分享。悲伤有时，从不随意发泄。会发火也是因满到了瓶颈。

反省，闭嘴，笑容。

被遗忘的自己

2011-12-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

往前，再往前。

忘了反省，忘了思考。

不问个青红皂白，也不给任何机会。

难道自己的不愉快压抑不住，就发泄在他人吗？

无意的一句话成了一场争吵的导火线 - 无理

Disappointed.

2011-12-23T22:07:00.001+08:00

I'm rather upset right now. Seriously. Don't blame me for your inadequate planning and role/manpower allocation.
I really wish I can plan something proper and show them I am not some incompetent guy who only knows how to flare up.
I WANT TO HELP BADLY but many a times I don't feel appreciated.
That's it for ranting.

片刻

2011-09-23T08:22:00.001+08:00

握着的手，心是凉的。是愚蠢的挣扎，还是有情的执著。

命中注定

2011-09-19T15:49:00.002+08:00

他和她。他们、你和我。

相遇的每一个人都是命中注定。

他们活在你世界里是因为你们今世已注定成为家人、夫妻、朋友、敌人。别抗拒。接受，放下或许走的愉快些。

生命的美

2011-09-19T15:28:00.002+08:00

当富翁们都抢着买最漂亮的洋房，我们埋怨着屋价高涨，却忘记有人只指望有个地方住。

当富翁们走遍天涯海角，就为了品尝三珍海味，我们只期待下一次的大餐。却有人只希望三餐温饱。

当富翁们在等着做百万生意，我们只想要卖出保险配套等。却有人只期待有人能买他们的火柴。

看着手腕，手表不够名贵？

望着脚底，嫌鞋子不够时尚？

有些人却只想要一双健全的手脚。

生命的美，我们都拥有，却被自己的愚蠢而盲目。

别一直走，记得回首。

The Inner Animal

2011-05-11T01:11:00.003+08:00

In the day, when the light shines bright on you, you're just an ordinary boy.

As darkness shrouds and devours the glimmering clouds, you become yourself.

The Inner Animal starts to get the better of you. You start to go crazy, hysteric. I would say, you start to behave like a person. Everyone of us is mental, from the quiet introvert in your class to the outspoken retard next class. But, are you crazier?

The Inner Animal wants to speak. Suppressed feelings no more, not when it reaches a bottle neck and the bottle just gives way. You scream in agony, frustration, thinking it is the best way to let off steam. You're just being yourself.

Every other day, you're an actor. A masquerade parade, in a zoo.

知足 - 之“视”界

2011-04-12T23:13:00.010+08:00

金黄色的阳光透过窗口，洒在沉睡的男孩儿。

从不偷懒的闹钟却将男孩给震醒。男孩儿伸了个懒腰，望出窗。

已是早晨了。

蔚蓝的天空中飘着几朵雪白的棉花。男孩儿却闻到了空气中的甜与清凉。

放眼望去，一片一望无际的大海进入眼帘。

浪花轻轻地拍打着沙滩，海鸥却在上空自在地翱翔。男孩儿却听到了海鸥的快乐，听到了浪花连续拍打着沙滩所弹出的悦耳的交响曲。

这一天是多么的美好啊！

呀！一道五颜六色的彩虹出现在男孩儿的面前。那彩虹的颜色是多么的鲜艳、多彩。

男孩儿的彩虹却住在他记忆里。

对男孩而言，他的世界依然多姿多彩，只少了他人所看得到的颜色。

残酷的生命在男孩的眼前遮住了帘，久久不肯掀开。

戏如人生

2011-04-10T02:51:00.014+08:00

身边的一切都陌生了。

无知又无辜的孩儿们长大了，已不再会有一双手牵着他们走。

从温室坠入现实、一时茫然失措。

想找依靠，却不知何处、想找援助，却不知何方。

一双小又温暖的手伸展到面前。

啊，牢牢地抓住那双手，心里渐渐散发一丝暖意。

那不是亲情、也不是友情。

一种前所未有的幸福为黑暗的世界添了些五颜六色。

漆色却经不起时间的考验。

幸福总是短暂的。

渴望着牵的那双手遥不可及，失去的那双手也得来不易。

后悔也来不及了。

人

生

如

戏。

it's ok. it's alright.

2011-01-13T02:03:00.001+08:00

i'll find my way out.

it's practically meaningless for me to stay on.

the other pastures look so much greener and enticing.

i should just go ahead.

don't shackle yourself in regrets.

It's pouring.

2011-01-11T10:19:00.000+08:00

The night before, we were rushing all the work together. The next day, all the work meant nothing. It's too cruel. I still can't accept the fact, but I know I'll have to. It's a nightmare. Give me one tight slap and wake me up. This must be a dream, a very bad one.

No. It didn't work.

This feels so surreal. Every footstep felt so heavy. Every raindrop seems to hit me so hard, it's shattering me within. I couldn't have felt worst.

Rewind, alter the tape, press play.

《离别》

2010-10-28T16:10:00.024+08:00

《离别》

凝望着书桌上的照片，只见两人深情拥抱，脸上写着说不出的悲伤。那已是成年往事，却刻骨铭心、烙印在我的心灵深处。

望着她，不禁让我心酸。她蹲在那儿，低着头，严严密密的头发将脸庞遮住了。她的双肩不绝地耸动着。我知道她在哭泣，那种深切沉重的悲伤使空气也凝结成块。

“诗雯？” 我递了张纸巾给她。

她仍然默默哭泣，没有任何回应。

“诗…” 话还没说完，她就扑进我怀里。“哇” 的一声，她哭了。一切早已压抑住的悲伤全都释放出来。她的眼泪好似洪水，一发不可收拾。每一滴泪水都是那么的刺，滴在我心里，心如刀割。我轻轻抚摸着她的头发，深情的亲了她的额头。本想开口安慰，却换来了哭声，自己的哭泣声。

半响，她哭哭啼啼地问我：“你……一定要走吗？” 颤抖的声音中带着千万个不愿意。

我擦干了眼泪，望着她、忍着心中的伤痛，坚定地说：“是！” 她颔首应道，沉思了一阵子，便默默地离开房间。她的心情，我感同身受。

我好痛恨自己。双手无奈的锤打着胸口，久久无法镇定。“诗雯，我知道这件事来得太突然，你一时间无法接受，但我也别无选择。我必须走，我有我的职责。对不起。请你原谅我。你将是我一世的牵挂。” 画上最后一个句号，签了名便搁笔。我小心翼翼地折了信封，放进口袋。

“时间不早了，走吧。” 只见诗雯一手提着我的行李，一手提着我的外套。

“嗨！一路顺风！”

“到了北京，别忘了我们喔！”

亲戚朋友叽叽喳喳，人人满面显示出兴奋。唯有她，默默无闻。她双手十指交扣，好似在祈祷，祈祷我一路顺风，又好似祈祷我能回心转意，留在她身边。

我往手腕一望。呀！时辰已到。无情的光阴仿佛手中的沙粒，从缝隙中流逝了。

我走到她面前，四周忽然鸦雀无声。

“尽管我有多么的不舍，我还是得走了。” 说完，我将信封地给她，轻轻地挤了她双手。她赶紧拆开信封，仿佛心中就写着“我不去了！” 她依然抱着一丝希望，我心酸了，好似被捅了一刀。

她读完了，望着我。在她哭红了的双眼中，我看到了一位女孩儿说着一句话。

“我等你。”

我情不自禁地拥抱了她，眼眶也缓缓湿润了。

两人深情地拥抱着，脸上写着说不出的悲伤。

离别

2010-10-21T23:23:00.001+08:00

两人深情的拥抱，脸上写着说不出的悲伤。

《相遇》上

2010-09-23T23:50:00.017+08:00

秋日下，斑驳的树影洒落在枯萎的叶上。

初秋的风扫落叶、落叶纷飞叠翠流金。

从树荫中走出，走在大街上，风把橙红色的海，吹散两岸，开了道路，仿佛迎接我踏进这如诗如画的梦幻世界。

鸟儿们停歇在两旁排得整齐的梧桐树上高歌。

此刻的我漫步在树木落叶的季节中。

you :)

2010-04-02T22:14:00.001+08:00

and i can't smile without you. ♥

We're meant to be,

2010-03-25T22:04:00.010+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee just back from dinner and bowling!

yay just set a new personal best for bowling.

it's only 172 but still it's my personal best and i'm improving. yay

hmm... tmr is track and field meet.

hopefully it rains in the morning and not in the afternoon.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow not because of this.
It's because I can get to eat dinner with ♥ (:
♥, if you're seeing this, jiayou k ! It's friday tomorrow! & Thr's no school next friday!
And, Happy 3rd Month Anniversay (: ♥

I love you.

together♥

(:

2010-03-12T22:45:00.001+08:00

Someone asked me to help him blog so I shall do it (:
I don't really have anything to blog about.
I miss the owner of this blog badly!
Hope he sees this asap! ♥

:D

2010-03-08T16:28:00.001+08:00

Dar is lazyyy :P so now I'm blogging for him! :D

Bleah. I love my dar alot~

smile. not.

2010-02-24T20:56:00.001+08:00

i can't smile now.

i can't smile tomorrow.

i can't smile next week.

i won't be smiling for the next two years.

at least not to most people.

if you catch me smiling, count yourself lucky.

haha.

2010-02-19T21:48:00.003+08:00

hahaha. very fun leh.

to think you are an educated person.

and yet through out your entire learning journey, you obviously either didn't learn "reading people's expressions" or didn't understand "stop it, please."

education has failed you.

把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上。

听起来，你有可能认为是我反应太大。

但你自己想想看。你是不是太过分了。

我说得很白了。“不要再丢了” 听不懂是吗？还是我说话时还笑着，你就认为没事。

要我非喊不可是吗？我的忍耐度是有限的。

说我不生气，是假的。

我真的很不想发脾气，是你们自己太不自动。

我现在也不想骂人。

sad

2010-02-09T21:37:00.002+08:00

if you're my friend and you're happy right now, don't continue reading.

i'm sad. i don't know why. but i just am.

i don't remember how to smile now.

i don't remember how to laugh now.

i'm just like...overwhelmed with sadness right now.

ciao.

FREAK

2010-01-27T21:16:00.002+08:00

FREAK THIS SHIT.

don't ask me why or what.

i'm feeling damn freaking fed up now. and know what's the best part?

i don't know why.

probably there're too many things for be to be frustrated with.

but right now, the world just feels freaked up.

GET LOST. i don't feel like talking now.

25.01.10 over

2010-01-26T01:04:00.002+08:00

okay. 25.01.10 is over.

blah blah. tuesday. going to the cage with frens at 11.

i don't know why but i feel so frustrated now.

don't feel like talking. don't feel like smiling.

so shhh.

hope the rest of TODAY will be enjoyable.

good night.

thank you. :)

smile

2010-01-20T19:45:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so down today.

i know what has happened to you, but i can't help you.

this feeling seriously sucks but what can i do?

i really hope that you will be alright soon.

whatever the case, i'll always be with you.

this week

2010-01-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

this week flew past, literally.

monday night was hellish.

food poisoning

one night vomit plus diarrhea 10 plus times.

what the crap lar, like sleep halfway wake up then vomit.

lost 3 kg.... in a night. effective weight loss :D

then tuesday couldn't go out T_T (refer to abv)

wednesday, i wasn't feeling that well but yea still went for returning of first u with alpha

thursday, ALPHA BBQ (i still have lots of otahs MUAHAHAHA)

friday, TODAY, AVATARRRR!!! super nice :D a must watch. the whole storyline is cool. i also want to have an avatar :) haha.

okayy tmr going ubin. shall turn in soon.

good night world.

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

happy new year! Am at eugene's house now with alpha peeps :) haha. Had a crazy time. Hope 2010 will be a better year for everyone! Haha. My 100th post :) happy new year everyone!

so many things

2009-12-29T23:31:00.006+08:00

in the course of 4 weeks, so many things happened.

CIBTC D'09 is over.

the 3 weeks of nrc, atc, investiture, over.

new friends made, new skills acquired.

CIBTC really changed me.

CIBTC = FUN

26th dec

area chalet.

i must say the officers really have two ( probably more ) faces. haha.

in front of cadets, and behind them.

they're sooooooooo different.

area 4 really rocks.

4 for life! haha

ya basically that's about all.

looking forward to 31st dec, COUNTDOWN WITH ALPHA!!!

7th Jan BBQ w/ ALPHA too. haha

yea so cya.

you really made my day :) thanks.

Joi LIVE Webcast, 13 november

2009-11-03T01:16:00.003+08:00

Joi LIVE Webcast, 13 November! on UStream

再见，我的朋友。

2009-10-15T22:45:00.013+08:00

再见，我的朋友。

考试的压力，堆积如山的作业。

这一切似乎让我们忘了自己在为谁而忙。

这一切似乎让我们忘了学校也有朋友。

一群互不相识的陌生人到朋友，是缘分。

一群普通朋友到好友，是你。

我的朋友，四年就这样转眼间过了。

宝贵的时间啊，若我们不把握，无情的时间就会从我们手中溜走，好似流水从沙粒中的细缝往下流。

我的朋友，让我们一块停下脚步，回首，回味过去。

走过这四年的记忆之路，风吹雨打、雨过天晴。

这四年的路，虽短，但精彩。

尽管路有多么难走，我未曾害怕过。这都是因为你，我的朋友。

你总会在我的身旁，陪伴着我。

我的朋友，你还记得吗？

我们总会聊到深夜，还不肯入眠。

我们总会在操场上一起玩乐。

我们总会一起用餐。

我们总会一同走到地铁站。

这些往事，我未曾忘记。但往事只能回味。

我的朋友，四年来，我们都成长了许多。

我的朋友，四年来，你也给了我不少美好的记忆。

我的朋友，四年来，你让我体会到了一段难得的友情，一段我将会刻在心灵深处的友情，一段我永远、永远也不会忘记的友情。

谢谢你，我的朋友。

学校到地铁站那段路，那段记忆路，虽短，但精彩。我多么希望，朋友你，可以陪我一直走下去。但，天下无不散之宴席。

四年过了，我们也得分头，各走各的。

但，希望你也和我一样，珍惜我们之间的友情。

再见了，我的朋友。

朋友一生一起走，朋友不曾孤单过。

伤心事

2009-10-14T00:19:00.011+08:00

此刻的天空，蓝得很年轻。

白云，仿佛一堆棉花浮在水面上，飘荡着。

蜜蜂正勤快地采蜜，白兔则蹦蹦跳跳，在草丛里捉迷藏。

就在这一片朝气蓬勃的阳光里，就在那一片碧绿如玉的草地上，有个黑影，像是地上聚然冒出的一朵蘑菇，凝着不动。

是名女生。

她蹲在那儿，深深地垂着头，长长的头发将脸部严严密密地遮住。她的双肩不绝地耸动。她在哭泣。那种深切沉重的悲伤，使空气也顿时凝结成块。

so near.

2009-10-08T00:13:00.005+08:00

Are examinations really testing our proficiency in a certain area or just plain memory work.

Everyday, students drag their feet to school reluctantly.

However, there's nothing they can do about it. They are powerless.

Students never had rights. They often hear preaching about how far education can get them, but the truth is, education can only get you this ---------- far.

Then in class, teachers try to make lessons interesting to get the attention of students.

Learning is now being imposed on students. Few are truly enthusiastic about studies.

The sweltering heat from the afternoon sun blast the students as they battle to keep their eyes open and minds clear.

Suddenly, all the students start to listen attentively as if a surge of energy flowed through every single one of them.

Oh, it's the clock. 5 mins to the end of school.

The bell goes off and the students race out of the classroom.

The tables and chairs are in a mess. Litter seen everywhere.

The lights are switched off and everything dimmed.

The fans slowed down, coming to a halt eventually. Everything is still.

The cleaner empties the dustbin and dusts off the dirt on the tables.

The doors are locked and the classroom is ready for yet another hectic school day.

the last lap

2009-09-29T18:15:00.003+08:00

it's just a month more to Os and everyone is stressed out.

i guess this is normal for secondary four students.

but yea.. come to think of it

just a month more and that's it.

secondary education, over.

time really flies.

now, i really got to concentrate. no more fooling around.

anyway, today we're back to lessons. script checks are over.

school was as usual and the usual few of us lunched at S11.

after that i went to buy joi's new album :D YAY.

yea. 《回到最初》。the songs are pretty nice. listening to it now.

i'm gonna go do my work soon.

off i go.

bowling

2009-06-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

english oral was today in the morning.

11.00 they said on the schedule

but 11.15 they started it.

then luckily i was second in line. so yea

it was not too bad. then 2.30 BOWLING

yeah... training my back out which is still inconsistent.

first game first two frames were like this - / - / lol wasted

last game was good yay.

more consistent

double at the 8th and 9th frame. leh chuan missed one strike, or our score will be like +/- 1

similar scores for like until 8th frame. lol. final score. 144, not that it's very good, but i'm proud of it. improvement on my back out. leh chuan got 135. he ended it with a double X.

so yea. my boring life.

ciao. X.X

dumb? retarded? childish?

2009-05-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

ah yes. long time since i pen my thoughts here.

recently a few people have started playing maple again

in the world Eridanus

so i followed suit

yea i am trying out a pirate and today

i finally got to understand the frustration i once experienced.

dumbasses, childish behaviour

i saw this lv 5x cleric and he had many skills so i merely advised him to pump into one useful skill first before maxing out the others.

what happened? he defamed me. wth. my first reaction was... okayyy

and i let it be thinking it could have been someone who just err.... press wrongly.

but i was wrong. he logged out came in with another character with a similar name.

it was so obvious it was the same user. and he came with the same motive. wth..

i went -.-. i ran. i don't know why but i ran.

then he chased me

then i hid in the cash shop

came out, he was there

so i went back in

out again

phew... he's gone... what a day....

JaeJoongSin has just dropped 'i'm not telling you my ign' level of fame.

err...... oh what a day.

she gave a smile and disappeared.

i was still trying to comprehend what just happened.

then another character JaeJoongWar turned up.

my first thought. freak this kiddo.

quit game *click*

i went on my sin a while and was still amused by the damage he dealt ^^

then i was like what the hell

seriously, not that i am taking the game so damn seriously

not that i am sore over my negative fame.

but these kids. wth? they can't even listen to a piece of advice?

okay let's just say they dont listen. they dont like that idea.

do they have to take action against that person?

WHAT THE BLOODY HELL SHIT IS GOING THROUGH THESE KIDDOS' BRAINS. OH WAIT I THINK THEY ARE BRAINLESS, TOTALLY RETARDED, CHILDISH, AND ONLY KNOWS HOW TO SPOIL MY WONDERFUL DAY WHEN IT WAS JUST ABOUT TO END. OH FREAK. I WISHED I COULD HAVE USED A STRONGER TERM.

thinking about such childish actions make my blood boil.

can't they just play the game peacefully without creating displeasure or best still build their happiness on other's suffering. okay i ain't suffering LOL it's just two fame. it doesn't hurt. but the thought of the stupid bloody dumb, mentally challenged kid in front of the other side of the screen really makes me want to give him a knuckle sandwich.

so currently, on my blacklist

MAlien
MKrauser
JaeJoongSin

JaeJoongWar

to the person: if you are freaking reading this piece of freaking post, i ADVISE you to wake up your bloody idea before you get into serious trouble or you can wait for some gangsters to knock some sense into your head after you offend them. BLOODY FAGGOT! go and find other ways or channels to vent your frustration rather than passing it on to others. immature. BILLIONS OF BLUE BLISTERING BARNACLES. TEN THOUSANDS THUNDERING TYPHOONS. okay. done. if you managed to read this whole load without swearing. well, i guess you are mature but i am sure you are damn pissed now. haha. judging from your actions, you can't be older than a ten year old if not you are seriously mentally challenged/disabled. whatever. pfft. hey brainless freak! look here. you actually looked here? really brainless...... i hope you dont piss more people because i dont think all of them will be as civilised as me to ONLY write a blog post instead of stalking you and BAM. count the litres of tomato ketchup flowing out of your head.

to the rest: good night! =)

i think i have split personality...... -.-

npap 2009

2009-04-19T10:26:00.002+08:00

npap 2009 was held yesterday, at the hta.

this year was the 50th anniversary so some things were changed.

went with jackson, joe and met up with other people.

after that the 3 of us ( j,j,rj ) we went to walk about and jackson knows damn lot of people sia...

saw farith sir, ming jun sir, kee kwoon sir, syahmi sir and a lot more.

this year the marching in of support contingents is so much cooler.

the CCs march out first then the support cont march from the side split and form up.

but then this year, they invited A LOT of vips..... so in the end, only the vips, officers and the participants in first uniform are allowed to go in. so i cant go in T_T

heck. yea so we had dinner, played a damn lame game, then the loser have to suck the jelly and eat it in 5 secs.....

after which, we waited for the goh boys to be dismisesd then we took the npap bus back to cat high.

then had a little snack with jackson and joe then went home.

not a lot of pics this year... how sad.

memories

2009-04-16T23:10:00.003+08:00

it's so sad... times really flies.

i've just read some of my friends' blogs.

posts they made in secondary one and two

how i wish i could revisit those days, laughter and fun

sigh...

and now sec 4

O lvl

homework, stress

good thing we are stepping down from cca.

but still there is still one problem, and i've been thinking a lot about it.

a lot since last year.

i find that my friendship is a little strained, probably much worse, i not know.

but i can sense that. the tone, the way they react.

i can tell they just want to shrug me off.

i'm worried, i'm sad

i hope my doubts are due to over-suspicion. that's it

but i guess things arent that simple. they have never been.

so i will just have to wait.

time will tell everything.

those friends i could talk to at night, sharing secrets, and sharing our views on life

i find them avoiding me now.

i am still finding where the problem lies.

i know it's me but where and what

if only time could heal all wounds.

i wouldnt want to graduate without having friends.

honestly, i'm scared.

my secondary school life started well but took a drastic turn in sec 3.

please... if you know where my problem is, tell me.

i dont wanna lose any friends, or worse, make any enemies.

you may think it's a small matter,

but it has been bothering me greatly

i cant concentrate on anything.

i just feel so .... okay i cant describe that feeling but i hope you know.

it seriously has been bothering me, i mean it.

乒乓圆

2009-04-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

haha... this show is awesome.

when i reach home, it was 9pm on my clock.

i threw down my bag and on the TV.

then my tv screwed up....

couldn't switch it on, on off on off on off then finally got it to work

watch until 2nd commercial break then screwed again.

luckily i got it to work and didnt miss out much.

ha. read the i周刊 until the 18th episode. woots so many exciting things yet to unfold.

Ma Li'an and Akira-san is joining the New Century Club. lol i will stop here

dont wanna be a spoiler =)

oh and today napfa.

didnt really expect my results but i was a wee bit pissed at that mere 7cm.

but ah wells, i am satisfied =D

okay now off to do my english proposal then LALALAND!

omg. i gonna miss my 12.00 flight to lalaland!!!

okay, i am off.

bowling fever

2009-04-11T23:13:00.003+08:00

friday, good friday, yesterday.

yupps. it was kinda good. haha as the name suggests.

in the morning reached farrer park mrt at 9 plus while my bro went to the civil service club to bowl first.

saw xavier there reading his thick book. then he told me his mum is the assistant manager of the civil service club. OMG

lol zx came shortly after, followed by chek wei, the trios - jackson, yong kang and sebas and lc and lastly edison.

so we made our way to the bowling centre. 10a.m.

w.t.h.

waited one hour lol.

planetbowl is so cool i just love that place, so cosy and the rates are cheap.

tried out my bro's bowling ball, the pin navy and a high - performance ball, the hammer black widow bite bpr. but the particle ball wasn't that good for the dry planet bowl lane....

the thumbhole and fingerholes did fit my hand nicely. cool.

so yea. it was definitely DIFFERENT from house ball. the feeling was just..... WOOTS

first game i was still learning from him, and i got err... 116....

second game i was still learning and i won him though... 134

he kept fencing in the second game and missing spares.... so yea.

3rd and 4th game? it sucks. i just didnt have the skill and stamina.

i have to improve on my follow through, back swing, approach and release.

occ lanes are gonna be medium-heavy oily. guess the ebonite black widow bite bpr will do the job.

so today....nothing much. stoned a lot, procastinated a lot.

very disappointed. i am wasting so much time.

oh and my bro went bowling today again and is going tmr again.

for trainings, his competition is coming up.. ah wells. good luck! he scored a 188 today. haha quick nice.

seriously i want a bowling ball, brunswick sidewinder or rattler. sidewinder is a particle ball and particle balls die fast... i cant get a ball with a high hook potential if my follow through isn't good yet... well, such stuff takes time.

my bro's pin navy is fine. ^^

okay tmr have to wake up early to go the temple and pray. then i have lessons before coming home to do hmwk.

overall performance today. 1 on a scale of 1 to 10.

did nothing much

nights.

wth

2009-03-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

wth lar...

it's friday...

after cca, and i am shagged.

just wanna relax and play a bit

but... NO

i'm being threatened....

"you want to play you play, dont study"

wth? cant i play a bit on friday and study on the other days?

it's not even like i will play and not study right.

i guess all p_ _ _ _ _ s are like that. they want their children to be muggers

and do what they think is good. i have a brain. i can think.

i know studying is good. but information overload kills.

so in general. every p _ _ _ _ _ wants their child to lead a dull life in books.

i really don't get people. we'll die one day.whatever we have now is just temporary.

it'll be gone, all so soon.

anyway, i can't even touch my computer now when studying......

yea not even TOUCH. so FREAK!

WHAT THE HELL LAR.........

Grand Theft Auto

2009-02-23T19:35:00.003+08:00

haha, a long time after my gta sa crashed....

i took time to download it again. ha so i finished downloading it about a few days back

gta sa is cool but GTA IV is COOLER.

damn..... the graphic is like so damn realistic and it makes you go oh-wow-i-want-that

haha so currently downloading gta IV while TRYING to look at some essays and equations wrote in foreign language.

ah well

going to 'study' (if i can)

cyazzz

oh, did i mention the chinese paper was easy?

2009-02-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

no one else except me would understand my feelings.

they just think i dont give a shit about the whole world and that i dont appreciate whatever they do.

but how do they know? dont tell me about that telepathy shit.

I AM ME. I HAVE MY MIND, MY THINKING. there is NO SUCH THING AS MIND READING.

they DONT understand me

they CANT read my thoughts

but they think they can

i just cannot use words to express what i am going through, what i have experienced.

no one will understand. because no one else can be me.

they FREAKING DO THINGS AND SAY IT's FOR my good.

okay

i know

but what do you want me to do?

put an ad in mediacorp to say THANK YOU I LOVE YOU?

BLOODY HELL.

i get blasted for NOT KNOWING HOW TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.

WHAT I GREAT LIFE I HAVE RIGHT.

oh and they say i just dont feel repentful, or never change or even accuse me.

if i feel repentful, i wont be able to say sorry IMMEDIATELY.

and when i dont do that, they think i will NEVER DO IT.

i never tell them i am repentful, they think I NEVER AM.

WHAT A PACK OF LIES.

when they start blasting, everything i do will be argued with a reason that seems REASONABLE to them.

i cant do anything.

oh wait, if i dont they will whack me with their speech again.

so what do i do?

looks like someone needs to write a book : HOW TO BE A GOOD SON, FOR DUMMIES.

i need that book.

I FREAKING CANNOT EXPRESS MYSELF PROPERLY

AND THIS IS A MISTAKE? A CRIME?

WHY DO THEY HAVE TO JUST MARK ME FOR LIFE WITH A SINGLE MISTAKE I COMMIT.

and then he goes again, THEY CARE FOR YOU, AND YOU STILL DONT UNDERSTAND.

again, does he understand me? does he knows what is going through my mind.

I AM SO DAMN FREAKING SURE THE ANSWER IS

NO!

com'on if you are so good in reading minds, go be a magician.

even a magician cant read minds, those are optical tricks.

so yea. what makes you so FREAKING sure that i am oblivious to the care and love they shower me with?

what makes you think i DONT understand?

YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THIS IN YOUR LIFE.

I WOULD LOVE TO LIVE YOUR LIFE IF I COULD.

a life full of excitements and ACHIEVEMENTS.

oh there you go again. YOU ARE LAZY DAMN IT.

oh so i guess every person in this world who is lazy IS A CRIMINAL?

YOU GUYS BASICALLY JUST TREAT LAZY SHITBAGS AS CRIMINALS.

so it's my fault that i am not smart?

my fault i can't do well in studies?

my fault that everything is against me?

NONO, it's not your fault. YOU HAVE to believe in yourself

BULLSHIT!

if belief can take me so far, i would be giving the taking the president's oath now.

A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP.

i ain't going to believe in anyone now.

i ain't going to like show any emotions.

i guess that's the best way.

being as good as the dead.

just like zombies marching around, programmed to study, study, study

and cry to show appreciation.

then again,

if this is what you guys want me to be.

i ask you, WHY THE HELL AM I HERE, ON THIS HEARTLESS PLANET.

I'VE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH, DAMN IT.

i really wished i could have used MUCH stronger terms. but i guess there are little children reading this too.

DAMN THE WORLD.

DAMN EVERYONE.

DAMN ME.

friends no more?

2009-02-17T14:50:00.002+08:00

i am quite certain of one thing right now.

they don't treat me as a friend.

so i guess i just lost a lot of friends? haha.

all the more i cant wait for Secondary 4 life to be over

and go to JC and make new friends, true friends.

for now, i shall just go and relax before work haha.

friends or foe?

2009-02-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

things have changed.

friends are starting to drift away from me,

and vice versa.

now we may just be strangers

but who knows we may turn to foes.

i fear that day,

and hope it never comes,

but things arent looking that good.

i've wasted too many chances,

and i dont think i'll be given another.

can we still be friends?

i not know.

the world is dark, and cruel without friends.

that's my world right now.

and i dont know if it'll change.

the cruel truth.

射雕英雄传

2009-02-15T15:23:00.002+08:00

wah.. it has been more than two weeks since i blogged, haha....

well, i wasnt in the mood and there wasn't anything exciting about my life..

anyway, as the title says yea Legend of The Condor Heroes will start TODAY

every sunday at 7.30pm on channel U. lol

even though i have watched it twice already, i still look forward to it haha

might watch the whole series again. this version is quite nice haha

so yea... i will go off now

ariel lin ftw!

countdown

2009-01-01T11:41:00.003+08:00

there they go again....

what's so happy about a new year...

i haven't finished my homework, damn...

anyway, countdown is really damn dumb.

go there sing songs then LOOK at people play games then 5 4 3 2 1

woots new year and everyone goes home.

stupid right

i find it so freaking stupid.

last day of holidays = end of fun

last day of holidays = start to touch my homework

last day of holidays = start of nightmare

off to do work.

我好想活第二次。

2008-12-28T00:42:00.002+08:00

我好想活第二次。

为什么

2008-12-27T15:49:00.004+08:00

这世上真的有投胎这回事吗？

若有此事，

那来世的我们又是否知道今生的我们？

我才刚发现，

我们现在只有这一生。

不管是好是坏，

不管我们喜不喜欢，

我们还是无法改变。

可是，我觉得很可惜。

就因为此事，我们无法尝试别的生活。

一个乞丐，

一位富翁，

一位巨星，

他们的感受，他们的生活，

我们都无法去尝试。

难道我们的生活就要被命运决定吗？

我不甘心。

可是，我有办法吗？

一个人，

又怎能活两次？

我的人生

2008-12-25T01:39:00.006+08:00

若人生如戏，

我要做导演。

若人生是张白纸，

我要自添上颜色。

如果人的一生只能在梦里才能痛快，

我宁愿我的人生是一场梦，

而我永远也不要醒过来。

depression?

2008-11-20T17:42:00.006+08:00

i just ain't me

i want to be the me in the past

cheerful, friendly, happy-go-lucky

now i am just wearing a mask to make myself look happy

it's tiring

in the past, i enjoyed loads of company

now, i am starting to hate places with many people

in the past, i like daytime

but now, i prefer the night

becoming more mature? no, i dont think so

i just feel that i am becoming more cold towards everything

i started to hate myself and now more things around me

most likely it is due to problems that snowballed

i envy those people who can go overseas, to places where troubles can never find you

to places far away from here

i want to enjoy myself, but how

i want to play and be happy, but how

i just want to be at a place where i can relax, and spend some happy and memorable moments with my loved ones

but now this cant be achieved

and so i prefer to be alone

whenever i hear happy music,

i dont know why but i shut it off

i dont know why i changed so much

and i really wish i knew

for now i just want to relax, and wear a smile on my face everyday, a real smile

not a mask.

towards things happening around me,

i don't really care.

don't

really

care.

back

2008-11-20T12:54:00.002+08:00

okay, i decided to blog and this time round, in english

due to the many complaints about how chinese is hard to read

and i bet majority just clicked the close button when they see chinese

anyway, 14-16nov was camp, nth much

black knights trainings started and it pisses me off

nxt up is annual hike and lots of preparation are needed

and i should be planning city venture right now but i lack brains....

YES, i need moooore brains, the more the merrier.

this holiday is gonna fly past and if i dont plan this holiday,

i will have loads of troubles planning it

and i am supposed to brush up my chemistry, physics, and mathematics

this holiday but i dont know how i am gonna do so.

anyway, i kinda of just woke up and damn, so late

yea, i guess i have to change my lifestyle a bit

tomorrow is bk training so i gotta get myself prepared

so list of things to do

- Black Knights
- City Venture

- Holiday Homework

- Revision of Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics

- Do my filing

- ???

好累

2008-11-07T20:21:00.006+08:00

今天，去打羽毛球。

好久没打了，现在打起来好逊哦。

哎呀，假期那么长，有时间在自己去打。

运动运动一下也好。

现在，好累哦

我先去歇息了

晚安！

经过

2008-11-02T22:01:00.009+08:00

今天下午重看了《不能说的秘密》

你们可以说那部戏很旧了，可是好看就再看啊！

好啦，我刚刚才看完一部电影、《经过》。

听电影的名就感觉有点抽象了吧。

可是，每个电影都一定会有一个含义。

只是，这部电影的含义有点难理解，我不太明白。

故事的大纲就是讲述一位在博物院工作的员工遇上一位很古怪的日本人。

那日本人似乎对一幅艺术品非常感兴趣，可那艺术品就刚好没有展出。

那工作人员就尽力地去帮那日本人。最后。。。

我想我已说了很多。

要知道整个故事就自己去看吧。

心动不如行动。

哈哈。

晚安咯！

花恋蝶。

2008-10-29T00:37:00.013+08:00

花恋蝶。

花在蝴蝶身边，但是蝴蝶却没感觉。

这种爱，是纯真或傻？

很多的时候，我们都是那一朵花。

可蝴蝶是否在我们的花瓣上？

有时，那蝴蝶在远处。

花，就愚蠢。

有时，那蝴蝶停在我们的花瓣上。

花，就痛苦。

暗恋，辛苦。

被爱，幸福。

若蝴蝶在远处，很多时候，

花都只是听说有那么一只漂亮的蝴蝶。

若蝴蝶就在花瓣上，

花，只能眼睁睁地看着蝴蝶，

但无法表达它对蝴蝶的感情。

不可惜吗？

就是那看似骄傲的蝴蝶忽略了身旁的一切

而造成了那看不起眼的花朵孤单，痛苦。

你们是否该问自己是花或是蝶。

珍惜一切，

就算没有拥有。

这看似简单，

但有多少人能做到。

我想，只有几位吧。

人，就是那么的自私。

此文章灵感取于年轻又活泼可爱的林乐泉先生。

人来人往

2008-10-28T21:33:00.008+08:00

每天，有多少人与我们擦肩而过，

可是，有多少人会走入我们的心里。

我想，只有一个吧。

幸福，就像一只蝴蝶。

你愈是想捉它，它就会飞走。

你愈是想拥有它，它将会离你而去。

相反的，

你若是静静地坐在那儿，它将会飞到你身边。

幸福。

你不可以去追它。

你只可等。

我们的命往往不是我们梦里那么的完美。

每个人都有自己的生活，

而有多少人讨厌自己的生活。

可惜的是，我们却无法去改变我们的命。

很多时候，我们总是长大后才发现，才后悔，

当初，为何我不去做这件事，那件事。

人总是有后悔。

可有些是无法弥补的。

这后悔将使人们终生耿耿于怀。

即使到了最后一秒，

我们仍然会后悔。

你不觉得这，很可惜吗？

但是我们却无能为力。

人，是多么的脆弱啊。

last day of school

2008-10-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

ciao guys

so yea.. today is the last day of school

and after todae

next year,

i wont be in the same class.

i'm posted to 4-5.

okayyy

so report book.... (i'm not obliged to tell you anything)

okay so after school ends

which is after a omnimax movie

about how the river is drying up

"big things begin with one determined person"

SAVE COLORADO RIVER!

erm, after the movie,

went to j8 for lunch and went occ for bowling

went with thor, sq, eddy, jack, ernest, rongxuan and weikit, oh wait, there's zixuan >.<

so went there, found out some 3-2 pple were also there

so we played

lol sq eddy and thor keep playing spin, kena influenced by me =P

so i just played blindly haha

so the score was very lousy

first game : 92

second game : 114

so i left occ, depressed.

nah... joking

so yea nothing much todae.

i wan to play badminton also. rawr.

ciao guys

2008-10-20T17:57:00.001+08:00

once bitten twice shy

2008-10-15T22:33:00.003+08:00

DAMN a bunch of freaking retards.

shouldn't even have tried to talk

all i get are shrugs and their eyeballs start to roll

freak them. they arent the only ones who know how to give others a cold shoulder

i'll show them.

heard that? i'll show u, bastards

pissed me off.

The Most Distant Course

2008-10-14T20:19:00.003+08:00

ah, i watched a movie today.

The Most Distant Course.

最遥远的-----------距离。

yups, that's the movie title

however, this movie is very different from those i have watched.

in my opinion, this movie is very abstract

and yea

it doesnt suits me.

i dont really understand it.

you guys can give it a try.

but yea

it's confusing.

anyway

watched 10 promises to my dog again, coz my brother wanted to.

so i also went to watch

okay that's all

dont be surprised if i aint talking in school.

i trying to keep my mouth shut.

"i don't really care."

little dj and SECRET

2008-10-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

it has been a while since i blogged

i wasnt quite free during the weekends so i didnt managed to catch the movies

anyway

i continued watching movies today.

the first movie was little dj

well it was a sad movie alright

real sad

the boy died after he confessed his love.

pretty sad.

then in the evening i watched secret.

well

it was great

sweet, romantic

and it was everything someone could ask for

at least i would like to have such a love life. haha.

however, such pure and true love doesnt exist in modern society like singapore.

the movie did moved me

many thumbs up

a must watch movie

jay chou and kwai lun mei looked quite compatible

this sweet couple made people envious.

that's all i could say

a really good movie.

go watch it!

i think i will be re-watching secret many many and many times

The Queen's Classroom

2008-10-09T19:21:00.003+08:00

okeari! - welcome home in japanese LOL

okayyy...

found another show or rather drama series

quite long 12 episodes

each episodes is abt 1-2hrs lol

but i finished watching it! woots

nice show

about the teacher and the students

it's a must watch! haha

as nice as those two i've watched

guess i'm going to watch Little DJ tmr

oh wait.

there's school

lol

maybe someday i will watch

and kamikaze girls too maybe LOL

okay that's all for now.

ciao

sayonara

Death Note

2008-10-08T22:02:00.004+08:00

haha. so yea...

today, i watched death note

and well

how do i describe it

the plot was great

and the actor playing the role of L Lawliet was just brillant

Ken'ichi Matsuyama he managed to potray a character of pure intelligence and with a queer character.

death note is one good movie or rather movieS

haha

and i loved death note 3 : L change the world especially

but why must L die.

he was clever though, to escape Light/Kira's clutches

and i realised Mayuko Fukuda who acted in death note 3 as Maki also acted as Akari in 10 promises to my dog.

death note, a nice show with a great ending that most death note fans would be disappointed or frustrated with.

my favourite character in death note has to be L Lawliet.

a cool guy with a cold character.

well okay

that's all

got to go. hahaha

tomorrow what movie shall i watch?

who knows? haha

no matter how gifted, you alone cannot change the world.

10 promises to my dog

2008-10-07T22:28:00.002+08:00

ahh... i'm back.

after thinking for quite some time about what to do.

i decided to watch a movie on crunchyroll.

when i reached the homepage

holy crap, 10 promises to my dog?

i heard about this show.

and it was just uploaded, about 9 minutes ago or so at that point of time

so oh well, i clicked and watched

damn. it was great

touching story

everlasting love

dogs are really man's best friend

and they are really very loyal.

at some very sad parts of the movie,

i did cry.

and yea... it's just very touching

if you have the time,

go watch it

http://www.crunchyroll.com/library/10_Promises_to_My_Dog_-_Movie

you will regret if you dont watch it

seriously.

okay

after watching this sad movie

i lost my mood to play games -.-"

and i keep thinking about it "Socks"

lol if you watch the movie you will understand

and yea so i am trying to look for other movies to watch TMR

haha. but this movie is deeply etched to my mind

i keep thinking about it every now and then

it's too touching that it leaves an impact

a great one.

okay that's all

good night!

exams are over!

2008-10-07T17:33:00.002+08:00

the dreaded final year examinations are finally over...

but.... i dont feel the excitement nor the happiness.

all i am feeling now is BOREDOM.

why?

someone enlighten me please.

i tried playing games but still, i feel bored.

should i go jogging? cycling? running?

or simply hang out with friends?

today the field was muddy so yea... no soccer

and i want psp T_T

i am so damn BORED!

someone tell me what to do... RAWR!

or recommend any games.

or maybe i should start watching a drama on crunchyroll. lol

oh ya, guys please watch Young Warriors of Yang Clan.

a wonderful show lol

i know i keep talking about it.

sigh....

let me think of something to keep me engaged.

so for now cya... but i wont be away for a month again >.<

少年杨家将

2008-09-10T21:54:00.006+08:00

yea i'm back. only for a while.

exams are limiting my free time.

those who know me and have noticed it,

i haven been on msn for some time.

anyway

i am posting some vids on 少年杨家将.

haha. nice show. a must watch. touching and sad ending.

not the kind of ending everyone likes.

hi

2008-08-29T03:45:00.003+08:00

hi peeps, i cant sleep T_T
time check 3.45 am
poor me, i am still studying for my hist elect test tmr
sigh.....
and the Young Warriors of the Yang Clan really damn sad sia
everyone die
in the end left with Liu Lang....
Wu Lang go be monk... lol
a bit de random here. but anyway
yea. watch it.
it's nice
i gotta go study and sleep
but surprisingly, i dont feel tired
probably that cup of coffee really worked ^_^
haha. okay that's all for now.
bye people
oh wait
GOOD MORNING!
haha
happy teachers' day

Bishan Active!

2008-08-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

okay, back to blog
todae i am dead beat
dunno why. just plain tired
anyway
todae is SUNDAY!
cip..... for BishanACTIVE!
haha there a lot of facilities sia..
beach volleyball, soccer, basketball, track and other stuff
gathered the cadets, checked strength and went over.
gave out caps
and one sec 2 can still listen to music when he is on duty.
put handphone in handphone pouch then listen.
pls man, i can SEE.
another two sec 2s playing catching over there, shouting while running
in CHSNPCC UNIT TEE
wth. felt like knocking some sense into their heads straight away
disgrace.
utter disgrace.
we lost our standard...
for the moment.

so todae bishan active then help to clear the track for the race
some pple damn dumb lar.... pls
see pple running then cross road
ask them clear road they stone there
ask them walk one round they bo chup you.
freak it. pissed me off man
then basketball match. ahaha
saw edmund play. cat high lost in the end
against national team by 10plus points? around there bah...
after that debrief sec 2s and went to eat.
reached home. slept
till like 6
woke up
damn tired
then 8 pm. closing ceremony
damn sad T_T
the fire just went *poof*
7 years of hardwork, gone in 16 days.
those performers trained for 10 months and performed for 5-10mins
those athletes too. but some left a mark in history.
8 gold medals? michael phelps.
9.69? usain bolt.
get what i mean?
nvm if u dont anyway i am gonna finish my work asap
and...... sprint off to lalaland.
sprint 9.70s.
bb

training

2008-08-20T23:34:00.004+08:00

todae, in class damn slack
carpe diem update gentleman's passport
then rest of the period do homework
then additional mathematics also do self study
because miss chow not here
then e maths
went thru similarity and congruency again.....
then recess
physics, sound ws wth
so damn fast....
zzz and assembly,
talking cock with bentley. haha
training quite normal.
in class todae keep practising my ta rev f3.
after training went to eat then went home
slept again. damn tired sia...
okay and now i am going to do my work
oh ya, just realise that my imeem there got song name LOL
lame.....
okay i really gtg
it's 11.30 and i haven started on my homework.
bye bye all~

and from todae onwards, i swear i'm gonna make freak the only swear word i use.
FREAK IT LA

i'm back

2008-08-18T21:06:00.004+08:00

okay okay....
hello peeps, that is if you are still reading my blog. haha
didnt blog for a loooong time mainly due to...
mastery review III and i keep falling sick....
damn it, i missed national camp.
not missing as in thinking of the times there
i MISSED IT. i didnt go.
freak. why? stupid fever
shoot up to 39.1 then nvr come down
until tues then about 37. stupid.
national camp sounds fun. heard from pple who went and alpha they say quite zai leh
damn it. i am alpha de leh. rawr. but... ah wells. i missed it. what to do? haha
not very very very very upset that i couldnt go. the camp is slack. uber slack. hahas.
but still, missed a chance to see the world. heard bb's pds is brillant. didnt get a chance to see it
seeing is believing. believe it or not.
but ah wells. i'm not like regretting damn lot for missing this camp. i aint swearing or cursing.
just living my normal life. and yepps.
hmm let's move on.
mastery review.
what's that?
dont know. dont care. dont bother to find out.
okay, so yea, sch wk quite backdated.
hey, today i learnt PDS. haha
rotation. a bit and tornado, just learnt. haha
cool. cool.
but my hand pain.
then pen spinning, i can do TA rev le. woots wahahaha. RAWR
okay. i go do work.
oh ya this afternoon play fifa then realised i suck.
shit, needa youtube all the tricks tutorial again.
i damn zai last time okay....
rainbow over goalie de....
but again, it is virtual.....
sigh~
okay okay i go do work le.
bye bye .
ciao.
拜拜。
sayonara.

oh ya, my blog song is changed. guess song name.
correct answer get a prize...*

*Terms and conditions apply
- prize shall be decided by the organiser
- the organiser's decision is final
- the organiser can change the rules without prior notice.
- the organiser owned you flat. =P

HAPPY B'DAE XAVIER

2008-08-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

okay today 5 august...eh 6 august liao -.-"
anyway this post is meant to be yesterday's
because i was so tired i slept till like 12 then i woke up
and yea.... a quick post here.
first of all

H
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XAVIER!! aka war machine =D
or rather todae is the day he is manufactured =P
wish your knuckles grow stronger
and and.... get some humanity >.<"
okay nvm
i will now touch on sec two shoot briefly
overall,
it was bad
no full marks scorer
upon 80, i dont think anyone has got 7x
the lowest being 0....
but nevertheless
this is their first time handling real gun.
but one year back i also first time LOL
yea... this live shoot doesnt really matters
nxt year classification shoot
better do better
lol. okay shall go do work and sleep.
ciao.

2008-08-02T23:43:00.005+08:00

todae, did some work and played a bit
for pple who are interested in joining me in games
pls google 'nymaplestory' AND go to this webby, www.dragonstory.com
two cool private servers =D
then just went out with family for dinner and old airport road
then went to geylang for durians
3 for 20 bucks
what a scam
haha
then went back home
only to find out that our house wooden door lock is spoilt
so we struggled a while before calling the locksmith
the locksmith came and drilled a lot of holes on the handle
in the end he dismantled it and HOME!
then 200 bucks for another new lock.
ha, it's the same locksmith my parents called thrice
lol, door always spoil
some pics on the 'UPROAR' just now LOL.

k gd byes peeps, i still have one last test
coz i mc on friday -.-"
okayokay byebye (:

will be changing blog song AFTER National Day!
woots 晴空万里！
take out your singapore flag and wave!
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okayyy, i gonna go ~~sleep~~ work a little bit more then go to sleep. haha

Happy Birthday!

2008-07-27T12:43:00.003+08:00

this post is dedicated to SUPERSTAR heyuan!

H
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happy birthday heyuan!
wish you an enjoyable and memorable birthday, SUPERSTAR!!!

w.t.h

2008-07-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

w.t.h
this move is so damn nice
i am gonna learn it RAWR

http://www.upsb.info/wiki/index.php/Backaround

sigh

2008-07-23T00:25:00.003+08:00

this squad is breaking up. silently.
so silent, outsiders never knew.
this definitely isn't what we wanted.
secondary 1, we were lost yet we started to talk to each other
secondary 2, things were getting so much better
we were all bonded and all.
but now, things are going down.
people, blinded with power,
overlooking people who lie low.
our jigsaw puzzle is breaking up.
with a few stuck together.
as much as i hate to see it break up,
i cant do much if they don't wake up.
i seriously can't be bothered about them.
never admitting their mistakes.
never learning from their mistakes.
never being careful to avoid the same mistakes.
it's just so sickening.
there is no need for me to give names.
not that it won't be nice.
it's that they won't even give a damn.
sometimes, action really do speak louder than words.
someone in the squad did show his unhappiness,
by just not saying a single thing.
i am not calling everyone to shut up and live their lives.
i just want to see the squad back together.
people, i guess you know who you are.
if you are reading this.
please do your part.
yes, i said PLEASE.
every problem in the world has solutions.

anyway, to bring things to a lighter note.
the song you're hearing RIGHT NOW.
my timing should be right if you are reading my post.
okayy, this song is the theme song for this year's NDP!
chinese version by Joi Chua.
nice song. nice voice. nice singer.
enjoy! =D
ciao peeps

dont dump your pens!

2008-07-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

hello peeps,
just a request from me
if you guys have any unwanted pens,
please dont throw away, give me >.<
i'm looking for the pen body only,
thanks peeps.

Pen Spinning!

2008-07-21T01:46:00.010+08:00

all these videos are done by me!!! (:
however, the tricks are taught by my shifu, leh chuan LOL =D

haha, that's it for now.
when i train and learn more combos,
i will post them up.
=D
i have to thank leh chuan for teaching me the moves.

what to say?

2008-07-19T23:15:00.002+08:00

i'm utterly digusted by some people
yes, i am talking about you
i wonder if they ever did self reflection
despite asking people to do so
they are just a bunch of attention seekers
trying to be in the limelight
backstabbers. traitors.
what else can i say?
the world revolves around them.
the rest of us? do we even have a right to speak up?
NO
all those big talks about how posts were superficial
are a whole load of bullshit
if they cant even practise what they preach
then what's the point?
all that acting
would just break up our squad
oh wait, since when were we a squad
i thought we were merely a group of individuals.
one compliment and their heads
SWELL
i am not planning to patch up this broken relationship.
it's just so not worth it
some people say
i'll change, i'll change
but now?
oh cool, he is back to his normal self
does he realise it? NO
does he knows how others feel? NO
does he even give a damn to ask for forgiveness from others? NO
he would just stay by his master's side and follow wherever his master goes
he doesnt even care, so why should i?
i have tried many times, oh wait, WE tried many times to resolve this
but it is always back to square one.
yes, WE, me and a few others.
his ego is so big
the next thing you see in outer space besides the great wall of china
is his ego.
he can never swallow his pride
tilt his head down
SINCERELY say sorry and mean what he says
today he says it, tomorrow he forgets
so what's the point?

i'm washing my hands of such matters
just because they are BIG and all
I have to be the ONE who takes the FIRST STEP
and say sorry
after that, they would just feel that they are always right
and hey you, say sorry to me. you're in the wrong
this friendship is so not worth it.
why should i take the initiative
dumb asses
arrogant people.

2nd class

2008-07-19T22:48:00.003+08:00

todae, nothing much
went to sch in the morning
polished boots, it cracked
then changed into full u
uniform inspection
wasnt good
MOI
still okay
ICE
hmm, not good too
so my 2nd class is
kinda screwed
went home
slept
slept
slept
woke up
ate dinner and blogged
so yea
that's it

what if you never left me...

2008-07-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

those times,
those days,

all gone.

survial camp!

2008-07-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

okayyy, i know i a bit lagg
now then post about survival camp
but..... better late than never =P
let me start off

Day 1

we set off to pulau ubin
the bumboat ride was not as nice as last year
last year got water splashing (:
then when we got there, it started to rain....
however, it didnt dampen MY spirit =D
i was like so high~
we put on poncho
it was so ~~warm~~ HOT in poncho,
but as usual, a few cold jokes will cool everyone down (:
then we walked to campsite
first activity was treasure hunt
we dont know where is secret garden
in the first place, we shldnt know, coz it's a secret. shhh....
the game was rather short due to the rain.....
rain rain go away
little rui jie want to play =(
lol
ignore my randomness
then it was tent pitching
kao, i go peg my hand -.-"
then hmmm forgot what activities LOL
nvm
dinner
then campfire discussion
7 song leaders selected
let me think.....
ME! lol kai feng, brandon, firdaus, jeanie, regina and shawn
revised songs
I JUST LOVE GAKO THE FROG
haha piong piong piong~
sing along~~
lalalalalalalala~
wash up
then slept till 2.00
2.15 to 3.00am sentry duty

DAY 2

6.00 pt!
run ar run ar run ar
pt was okayy
then breakfast
MAIN CYCLE 1!
our group did fire starting --> shelter building --> SIT
fire starting ar....
failed.
grp mates saw fire, so amused...
spam with leaves until no oxygen
how the fire burn...... zzzz -.-"
then shelter building.
another failure
didnt think of the flaws of the design
what can you expect from such a dumb person like me
NOTHING!
woots
okayy so sit
quicksand
ahhhhhhhhh!
as usual, i ~~acted~~ was retarded
then hmmm
lunch
one match stick can light five stoves, you know?
you dont know? okayy, now you know
*clap clap*
then main cycle 2
LAND EXPEDITION
rawr
was rather pissed at the ending
but... ah wells
forget it
let bygones be bygones......
land ex was informative but short
after land ex, wash-up, dinner, mock campfire
then.... REAL campfire
2 emcees selected.
actually firdaus and jeanie then in the end
firdaus and shawn
worst thing
after dinner
we found out we have no script
so zai right
then we stone there dunno what to do somemore -.-
in the end, rushed out a script
then REAL CAMPFIRE
the sec 2s and 3s entered
then we led the songs
i was again so HIGH~
thousand legged worm!
addicted to it man
then everyone including officers, joined it
then "hop around, hop around"
someone too short to hold on. hahas
then everyone so high keep going on and on and on and on and on.....
how to stop?
ah ha then i just "woohoo" *clap clap*
then everyone clapped and cheered
gao dim! =)
then my grp skit.
i also not very sure of it
lol, but aiya, everyone so happy
just lamed and crapped about
then i realised when some people laugh, they have to whack others o.o
after all the performance
a few slow-paced songs
officers performance - at the beginning and love me
both are nice nice songs =)
thank you sirs and ma'ams
then we ended the campfire
so sad
high time is over
OVER
O-V-E-R!
nvm, then night confidence activity
kept meowing about
and got poked, tickled, whacked, sprayed water on
RAWR, i go call SPCA then you know lol
i recognised their voices
siming sir, yanhao sir, ziyi ma'am, yi fan sir, xiang jun ma'am, joshua sir, fengyuan sir still got....
dunno lol
then in the end crawled over a wet table
kena whacked by balloons
then i lost my balloon -.-"
ate sweet haha
then end of activity
debrief
good night campers~

DAY 3
woke up
ptptptptptptptptptptpt
funfunfunfunfunfunfunfun
then breakfast
area cleaning
waited for sec 2 to come to our campsite
sec 3s made a area IV cheer
bishan park *clap clap clap clap*
cat high *clap clap clap clap*
guangyang *clap clap clap clap*
kuo chuan *clap clap clap clap*
pierce *clap clap clap clap*
ri *clap clap clap clap*
whitley *clap clap clap clap*
we are in f-o-u-r AREA FOUR
we are in f-o-u-r AREA FOUR
area four fight
area four fight fight
area four fight fight fight
wooooooooooooooooooooo AREA IV!

nice right?
i aint giving you a choice to say no
so say yes
thank you!
okay then break camp after a few photos
i'll post photos when i get them
then ate nasi lemak
went home
slept on bus allllllllllllllll the way!
then went home
slept alllllllllllllll the way!
okay haha

now about todae!
campcraft test
first practical
one knot dont know how to tie
or rather is dont know that knot is called that name
zzz
then special station
good game
lashings
hmm not well done
so sad
oh it was sad.... oh it was sad.....
back to topic
campcraft theory
damn it
it just suck
some questions really just stunned me
more than my bowmaster's silver hawk stun
more than assaulter
more than vengeful spirit stun
earthshaker also never stun so much
RAWR
then i handed up the paper thinking
i am so screwed
sigh~
saturday 2nd class drill test
MUST MUG
but when
tmr hmwk not done leh
i reach home at like 8.45
okay i go do work
dododododododododododo
bb
bye bye
拜拜

life's never the same without you.....

meowmeow, i'm on holiday!

2008-07-11T01:42:00.001+08:00

meow~ meow~
harlow peeps
i will be away from this friday to this sunday
11th to 13th june
for what?
SURVIVAL CAMP
RAWR!
so yea
i'm on a holiday
to ubin
haha
meow~
nights peeps
dont miss me >.<

buzzy

2008-07-08T19:26:00.002+08:00

wah kao~~
damn busy now
physics class test tmr and i haven touched my physics txtbk
maths class test this thurs and i also have no clue
chem test nxt wk
acid, base, salt, Q.A, salt prep is tested leh
die die die
i sux at chem
esp all those chapts taught last term
crap lar
then kao
white long sleeve shirt
can see thru'!
toot
4 bucks, cant expect anything
then 2-5 class tee 22 bucks
kao man, i'm B-R-O-K-E
anyway tmr sec 2s having their heritage visit
and i'm tagging along. muahahahahahahahahaha xD
shock them with the taser gun. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*evil grin*
ah anyway, a lot of homework crashing down
on me
and friday, saturday, sunday is atc!
how to do hmwk
how to study for test
how
how
how!
my grades are going
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someone, somebody, anybody, nobody, everybody SAVE ME!
sobss
right now, i am a bit sleepy and my mind aint working properly
so i may be typing crap
but...
who CARES!
ha. off to do my work
but often, i procastinate and stone in front of my com, rotting
i just cant FOCUS and DO my freaking piece of homework.
okay bb
i will try to do my work
TRY.....

laughter is the best medicine

2008-07-06T19:48:00.003+08:00

i got this comic strip or whatever you call it from daryl sir blog and daryl sir got it from his cousin
so yea
enjoy!
New school semester:

At the first week:

At the second week:

Before the mid-term test:

During the mid-term test:

After the mid-term test:

Before the final exam:

Once know the final exam schedule:

7 days before final exam:

6 days before final exam:

5 days before final exam:

4 days before final exam:

3 days before final exam:

2 days before final exam:

1 day before final exam:

A night before final exam:

1 hour before final exam:

During the final exam:

Once walk out from the exam hall:

After the final exam, during the holiday:

that's it for todae, i'm so bored
i cant focus
i haven done any hmwk
which wasnt what i planned
but anyway
SPIDERMAN 2
lol
i missed it when it was played on tv for the past few years
so yea
shhh
take care peeps
byes
nights
wan an

homecoming!

2008-07-05T19:08:00.005+08:00

haha, todae was homecoming day
our class was selling donuts
so i reached sch at 6.45
walked around, no one there
then played a bit of passing with scouts haha
then went to find the others
got class tee shirt
print wrongly though "we work haNd, we work harder"
lol then went to find stall
dunno where is stall -.-
but anyway
got one ~~guy~~ gay try to act boss, act smart
but then, i think i didnt even see him for the rest of the day
let's not talk about unhappy things
oh ya, miss thian dunked mr teo. lol. so cool haha
then sold quite some donuts
sell until like 2.20pm then the donuts suddenly like damn popular
everyone came to buy
i shouted and shouted and shouted
now i bo voice
anyway, we sold until left 50 like that then...
a lot of people came, haha
desmond sir, joe, joash, jeanie, bernice, rui min, jackson, hanwen all came to support my class' stall
HUAT AR!
lol jack bought 15
for 15 bucks (ahem due to some special request i shall name the "shareholders" of this 15 bucks. jackson, ruimin. yea.. haha the two ~~people~~ names are together...together........在一起. damn. i getting lame. call 995!
jack, i sell you cheap one hor LOL
only that time then deflation
after that deal, prices went back to 1 for $2
we keep ~~spamming megaphones~~ shouting. lol i think i'm addicted to namems =P
in the end, SOLD ALL 800 DONUTS
woots
800
eight hundred
eight oh oh
ba bai
hahahahahahaha, PWNAGE!
then after that, returned the things to summer house donuts
and joined the whitley plus cat high gang for lunch
lunch-ed at mcdonalds.
desmond sir bought onion rings for us. thank you desmond sir! =D
then crapped a lot.
about how pandas are bamboos' enemy
and about the cleaners there, cleaning the tables there for $3 per hour
and.. and... i damn poor thing. i think i look like figure 2 target
ruimin was shooting ice-chilli-curry sauce-coke pellets at me
lol, then we left after we lame-ed around. *need to go hospital* if you know what that means
desmond sir then drove home, joe and joash went to army market
then that bernice come whack me -.-" i seem to be a nice target.
anyway, hanwen, jackson and i went back to sch
played some soccer
fell down coz of that stupid slippery drain and damaged my phone
the external components didnt crack but then the internal components spoilt
when i switch my phone on, it will have cracks and all made of light. sigh sigh~
nvm then we left school
i run run run to catch a bus then when i go up, take out my wallet
some of my coins dropped out and rolled to the road. *my wallet zip spoiled long ago*
suay sia
unlucky sia
倒霉 sia
@#$%^& sia
then i slept on the bus
woke up only when the bus reached my stop
nearly missed it
gahh
so yea, played namems
died.
how unlucky can i get man.
sobsss
i wanna cry BOO HOO HOO
lol, nahh 男子汉大丈夫流血不流泪
hahaha, okayy so yea, i'm gonna rest today
forget all the unhappy things and look forward to tmr
明天会更好！
tmr gonna send phone for repair
do homework
and on monday... crap i forget my programme on monday
nvm
i'll ask around. i'm sure it has something to do with npcc. haha
okay peeps
take care alrights
i'm flying off
to lalaland only after 2 am =P

this is such a loooooooooong post. if you managed to finish reading the whole post.
a big thank you and congratz
if not.
SHOO
lol joking
okayokay
i starting to get damn naggy
okaaaaaay byes~

back!

2008-07-04T22:58:00.003+08:00

okay peeps, i kinda got over this matter already.
but still, yea, a tiny bit left
ah nvm
shall talk about thursday, YESTERDAY!
went to store after school. played caron with jack and hanwen
at first, i was losing, then warm up le
haha, own them =P RAWR!!!
then they left,
xavier came and played with a game of caron
and got owned also lol 36 - 10

my owning chips haha

leaning tower of ~~pizza~~ chips (:

trick shot....by xavier. he shot the last (nearest chip) in without hitting the others o.o

okay.. then now recently, a lot of tee shirts
«30th βάŦçĦ» squad t-shirt
class 2-5 t-shirt
class 3-2 t-shirt

lol, my pocket need sewing soon. because the 3 t-shirts gonna burn a hole in my pocket.
then chinese oral.
dont talk about it.
hmm todae
be-yourself-day
wear home clothes and stuff
PE was uber fun
the lesson kick start with 80 plus or 90 plus push-ups
then *PI, PI* "handball!"
yea this term, i'm playing handball.
so cool
so fun
so hip
so.....
forget it, let me move on
todae, played soccer after homecoming preparations
xavier owns
he sits there
and blocks a ball
then another shot by JJ
and xavier just stretch his left hand and deflects the ball away. wth. -.-
then another ball.
xavier hops and whack the ball with his leg
and shawn ong is getting more enthu.... in soccer, lawl
okay
then played a bit of namems when i came home
ate dinner
and yea
gonna go sleep soon
for tmr homecoming
i may be the mascot
dressed up in.....
nah, shant spoil it
come down and see! haha
but it's quite funny de lor
the "costume" if it is called one.
nvm
i'm tired
i gonna go rest well.
nights everyone.
take care.....

you are always not there when i need you.

2008-07-02T02:52:00.003+08:00

it's easy for one to hate someone
but it's hard for one to love someone

it's easy for love to turn into hatred
but it's hard for hatred to turn into love

hatred is everlasting
but since when is love everlasting?

probably my last post for this week. or year. or..forever.

byes

2008-07-01T20:12:00.003+08:00

dont hope to read anything on my blog for maybe the next few days
or weeks
coz many unpleasant incidents/things happened.
shant elaborate
but anyway
i aint in the mood to blog
so GET LOST man
SHOO! outta my sight.
dont bother me
not even on msn.

badminton!

2008-06-29T00:03:00.006+08:00

todae, woke up at 8 plus
reached sch at 9 and mr quay told us lesson pushed back to 10.00.....
played basketball at whitley court with jackson and xavier.
went back to store to flip thru' MORE old photos haha
then drank bubble tea before attending physics lesson
at ard 12 plus
physics ended
met the other pple in the store
they ~~stalked me~~ followed me to my house.
ate lunch on the way. tau GAY very nice =D
played badminton with hanwen, si hua, jackson, leh chuan, jian shen.
saw SUPERSTAR heyuan! woots, asked for autograph -.-"
played for quite long, then got a passer-by also join in and play o.O
play play play until very tired, so just walk 10 metres, press the button, enter the lift
walk out and tada~ HOME! haha, too bad for the rest (:
played namems a while. lv 116 now, 4th JOB SOON. thanks to leh woon for training me.
then went out for dinner with family and msn-ed a bit before bloggin now.

ah. picture of syf '08 ( bryan, me, jolene ma'am)
posing with..... SAME PHONE!!! (:
thanks to rafael sir for the picture (:
this picture not only bring back memories of npap
but also the feeling during the npap trainings
i'm missing npap T_T

okayyy, peeps take a break, have a kit kat >.<
take care....
i need to go off now.
have to catch a flight later
NIGHT FLIGHT
cool? haha.
i got my tickets F-R-E-E!
haha.
my night flight to lalaland~

dont leave me alone, i'm scared

SYF!!!

2008-06-27T22:36:00.004+08:00

yea, todae was SYF and i am so very hyper. haha
FIRST THING FIRST
thank you 'to the person who gave me tickets, vip tickets'
the person dont want me to name. but still a million THANKS
and i couldnt even study todae. was damn energetic even i slept early at 3.30am
i was just hoping the sch time can pass faster.
then it was training.
well. first training, shant elaborate
then i left early with lc to watch SYF!
my dad drove us there. thank you papa! =D
then watched syf
missed precision drills....but
who cares =P
i went there for the parade, to be specific
for the NPCC contingent. haha
ceremonial swords just look so shuai
bring back memories of npap.
the parade ended so FAST
10 mins or less
WTH. T_T
then went out and snapped photos with jolene ma'am and bryan haha
the three of us have the same phone. same colour. COOL! =D
tried to find yong kang, but boys contingent went up the bus back to hta already
saw many familar faces, jolene ma'am, rafael sir, alan sir, ming jun sir, syahmi sir and a few ma'ams (dunno names haha)
so cool. (:
the military bands is uber uber cool and nice!!!
after that, they have a few dance performances.
then home-ed
lol, lc and i got lost
we walked one big round and went back to the indoor stadium
then saw the np people still ard, bus came late. lol
I WAN LONGPANG!!!
in the end, took random bus to a bus stop then took to mrt and home-ed
syf... they trained for like longer hours than npap, and sacrifce more studying time.
in the end
the parade is so short, i really feel sorry for them.
but at least, u guys were in
i wan go SYF!!!
oh ya, during march past, YONG KANG I SAW YOU
SECOND FILE THIRD RANK =D
anyway, now i'm gonna take a rest
physics remedial tmr and badminton.

yong kang, i really pei fu ni. so many trainings, yet you still persevered to the end for that 3% lol
but seriously, i bet it was worthwhile (:
bye peeps
as for pics
will try to post
nights all.

store is fun!!!

2008-06-26T19:10:00.002+08:00

hahaha...
todae after school, went to the store to do hmwk
hahaha
of coz we crapped and lame-ed around.
wahahaha, need to go hospital liao.zzz.
erm, lc, SUPERSTAR heyuan, si hua, c[s]m, joey and me
flipped thru' old photos. quite entertaining WAHAHA
then do hmwk lar
sebas, jack, lc, si hua, joey and me went to macs at ard 5.30
to have.... lunch! not surprising anyway. squashed sebas boots on the way there
ate and crapped more... haha
that bunch of lamers. seriously damn crap and lame lor.
then 911 came for a while before going home. then we home-ed too
talked to lc on the mrt about going back to sec 1 and 2 life LOL
slack life.... sigh~ i miss those days.
okay. needa chiong physics FIVE year series (si hua told me 5 )
and maths ws.
bye peeps

◤ ruÍĵïἕ ™ ◢

laughter..!

2008-06-21T16:40:00.001+08:00

got it from my cousin

very sick

2008-06-20T13:22:00.002+08:00

sigh~
i am feeling so sick now
yesterday went to the doc's
my fever was 38.4
and flu
blocked nose
sore throat
cought
body aches
zzz.
doc said it was some kind of flu and that i have to rest for two days minimum
rest meaning sleep
and i slept the whole day yesterday
but i have to do some work so i am up todae
the drugs he gave me surely made me damn drowsy
zzz
back to rest
cya peeps

sick

2008-06-18T01:29:00.001+08:00

zzz...
i'm still down with a mild fever...
hmwk undone...
gg...

sianz

2008-06-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

boo!
hi peeps. =D
todae was quite a fun but ended sian day -.-"
i also don't know what i am talking about. nvm.
anyway, i played dagonms.
ah yes, it's quite lame, but i'm lame so i'm playing it
flash jump and shadow partner is like super uber cool.
arrow rain too LOL
hmm... my current characters are dk, prz, ranger, hermit, i/l mage
of which only the ranger is not 10x. the rest are above 11x
cool right =P
i was playing then suddenly i felt damn hot.
check my temperature and it was 37.9 i think
though it's not high but it made me damn tired and damn sleepy
ate panadol. feeling better now
then i continued playing dagonms with my bro for a while
then my bro stopped and say do homework LOL super random
but then i thought
i got so much homework
and i haven touch any
so yea... i suddenly feel damn sian and screwed.
so i decided.

Agreement

I, Lim Rui Jie, shall do my homework and only continue playing when i have finished at least one piece of homework. If i fail to do as stated above, I will ........ *thinking* ........... ah yes. i will be scolded by teachers LOL XD.

Signed By:

◤ ruÍĵïἕ ™ ◢

woots! a new beginning...

2008-06-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

eh, hello peeps
yea... i changed my blog skin =D
finally LOL
anyway yea... shall touch on some recent things
bowling comp on 13th june
first game
i bowled 139, (: with the help of push pop. >.<>sir and wei rong ~~sir~~ clinched the individual trophies too
but if they were to take the final's result into consideration, jun wei ~~sir~~ would have owned
his first game was 149 and 2nd game was 165 RAWR!!!!
freaking owning
pure ownage
anyway
i think i'm addicted to dagonms LOL
it's just so cool
by the way
homework sucks

P.S zzz jackson's blog also same skin as me RAWR!
i just changed my skin !!! nahhh, i'm not changing so soon.

homework are meant to be undone....

haiz

2008-06-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

LMSC.
i'm damn lazy to list out everything one by one.
just going to go thru' important things.
hmmm
i can be called the no. 1 kena sabo-ed king all thanks to..... SI HUA!
everytime sir ask, i need a volunteer, si hua will chant my name. kao~
nvm. then learnt many things
even got a chance to take a parade, although i was kind of nervous.
then congratz to liang wei for being the best squad trainee for alpha
hanwen for best squad trainee in CHARLIE, which is also the BEST GROUP.
sebas for being the overall best male trainee!
and yea... sebas worhs. good at affairs of heart LOL
yea... looking forward to atc
1 more month
4 more weeks
30 more days
to atc!
hmm...tired now
bye peeps.

busy week ahead

2008-06-04T00:20:00.003+08:00

okayyy people
rj's back... for the moment LOL
anyway, bowling competition FINALS on 13th june
i'll be there as a.... COMPETITOR, woots! lol
tmr is PK course @ HTA
worst thing is that... NO TRANSPORT
and we have to reach there by 8am -.-"
yea and today..let me see...
went to school to teach the ncc land sec 3s 8 basic knots
all friends so easier to communicate
but hor, some people call us teach them then keep playing
*ahem* shortie *ahem*
then sebas and i taught hanwen some cane drill
aiyo hanwen hand like got prob de lor LOL
anyway, after that played basketball.
chop 3 points WAHAHAHA
then rained
who cares LOL, continued playing
then we had a mini competition against chek wei lol 3 POINTERS!
hmm... busy week ahead
4 - 5 PK course @ HTA
6 - 7 NCO camp @ CHS
9 - 11 LMSC @ RI
13 BOWLING FINALS @ OCC

yea... so it's like
soooooooooooo busy
gonna sleep now
maybe not
whatever lol
bye peeps

ciao.

but...there's always tomorrow...

dont ask me why

2008-06-01T00:01:00.002+08:00

i hate myself
i hate everything around me
i hate my life

i have no friends
i have no life
i have nothing

i dont know what i am doing
if you know, please tell me

i lost the drive...
i lost the motivation...
i lost everything...
i once had.

i hate
myself
to
the
core

if someone can enlighten me

hmmm

2008-05-31T16:55:00.002+08:00

anyway, the problem is somewhat solved.
however, i will not delete the previous post
i strongly believe that a blog is meant to write down feelings of yourself at that time
and that's my feelings

POP! happy or sad?

2008-05-31T13:36:00.007+08:00

well, yesterday the 29th batch passed out (as in they left the unit) and we, the 30th batch took over the unit.
so yepps

30th may 2008

10am in the morning, i reached school and we were settling some admin stuff
then at about 10.50 we went to change only to find out that the fall in time was changed to 11.30
then we fall in with hanwen as the contingent commander for the secondary one, yong kang as the contingent commander for secondary two and leh chuan as the contingent commander for the seconday three, which is US! lol we had some rehearsal before we started the real thing.
so the emcee is zixuan, and you can see how nervous he is, LOL
so the parade started
ken sir, the parade commander took over the parade and march in the GOH
inspection of GOH
then fancy drill
then.... throw berets!
leh chuan then gave the command and we marched 14 steps forward, filling in the space
the posts were then announced.
congratz sebastian (: for being the chairman
when all the posts were announced, sebastian asked for permission to march off the parade
bersu....rai! then we marched off.
but one thing to say, if i was standing at the back, i really cant see sebas as the parade commander, LOL
squad leaders took over their squads.
and yea we had a concert at 4.30pm
to 6.30pm
the concert was still okay, except for a few cock ups here and there.
then after the concert was the buffet dinner
followed by a debrief for all ncos by siming sir.
then we went home.

now, i'm thinking. whether we are capable of taking over the unit.
signs of power struggles can be seen.
people rise up to power, and they definitely arent settling for that weeny bit of authority.
they are... going for MORE
they just cant remain modest or humble.
it's like they have to show everyone who's the boss
he isnt the boss but he wants to be.
other people are also starting to get arrogant
i dont know why but yea... things arent turning out the way they are supposed to
i'm afraid i'll have problems working with him
he is like even bossing other squads' squad leaders
he is just sucking up to sebas and hopes sebas will be his back-up
he is an actor
he acts in front of all officers
but i'm telling you, if he dares pushes me too far, it definitely isnt gonna be pleasant.
now i'm telling HIM, yes you. YOU better jolly well know your post and do what you are supposed to do, you jolly well dont poke your nose into others' business
what rights do you have to do that.
you better know your limits.
our patience have one.
so dont test it
coz it gonna hurt.. YOU
so dude, i'm telling you
i'm disgusted at the sight of you bootlicking sebas
i'm pissed when you tries to act the boss cause you aint the boss
i'm telling you now, you better do some self-reflection and change, not for a day but forever, before the rest of us help you to do some reflections
i feel that YOU ARE A JOKE!
do you have what it takes to be the boss?
yes? no?
sadly the answer is NO!
so? my suggestion?
be humble, stay where you are supposed to be
and stop bossing others around, coz you aint the boss
you cant even get the respect of others, and you are thinking of sitting on the boss seat, huh?
use your brains, dude
THINK!
i feel that i should put a stop to this
you are taking it too far
you are pushing your luck
it has been 3 years
and you havent change a single bit
in fact, you gradually became more and more bossy, arrogant
you are nothing but a hypocritical freaker
so yea
one word of advice.
KNOW YOUR LIMITS!

you
are
the
one

some people never learn

don't shackle yourself in regrets.

不知所措

我的心

被遗忘的自己

Disappointed.

片刻

命中注定

生命的美

The Inner Animal

知足 - 之“视”界

戏如人生

it's ok. it's alright.

It's pouring.

《离别》

离别

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you :)

We're meant to be,

(:

:D

smile. not.

haha.

sad

FREAK

25.01.10 over

smile

this week

Happy New Year!

so many things

Joi LIVE Webcast, 13 november

再见，我的朋友。

伤心事

so near.

the last lap

bowling

dumb? retarded? childish?

npap 2009

memories

乒乓圆

bowling fever

wth

Grand Theft Auto

friends no more?

friends or foe?

射雕英雄传

countdown

我好想活第二次。

为什么

我的人生

depression?

back

好累

经过

花恋蝶。

人来人往

last day of school

once bitten twice shy

The Most Distant Course

little dj and SECRET

The Queen's Classroom

Death Note

10 promises to my dog

exams are over!

少年杨家将

hi

Bishan Active!

training

i'm back

HAPPY B'DAE XAVIER

Happy Birthday!

w.t.h

sigh

dont dump your pens!

Pen Spinning!

what to say?

2nd class

survial camp!

meowmeow, i'm on holiday!

buzzy

laughter is the best medicine

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